Honto ni kawaii desu

Taiga is so darn adorable!

Don't you just love this smile? :D

My empty luggage feels heavy

Another 21 hours left before I board the plane home.

I'm going to miss baby Mickey. :(
And I won't get to see him slowly grow into a fat lumbering kitty.
Not like he's growing much right now anyway.


Hm. I never did realise how much I've gotten used to dear Ray's presence. Thinking about leaving him leaves an empty spot in me. Sigh. Three weeks is going to seem like an eternity.

But then thinking about all that's waiting for me in Malaysia... all the satay and curry laksa... *licks lips*

Err.. first I'll have to survive the 7 hour long flight. Alone.

At least you'll be with me, won't you Tiaraboo? :D

Twirls and swirls

Four more days before I leave my beloved Mickey to face the obstacles ahead all by himself. And when I said obstacles, I meant the big meanie Orion. Sighs. Poor Mickey, what would you do without me? He is such a baby, and a big fat sore-loser. He always cries right after losing a wrestling match with Orion. Silly goose, when will you learn that you are so much tinier compared to Orion?

Everything is all planned before my departure. Tomorrow's the day of the final exam. Thank goodness. Then Thursday is my R&R day with dearest and finally, to pack up some of my belongings the next day. I sound like I'm leaving this place for good. :)

One thing's for sure, I will not miss the damn heat around here. It makes people grouchy so easily.

Have been browsing through Strapya.com and I must say, owning a PayPal account is making life so much tougher. Decisions to make. At least I've finally found a buyer for my XPS M1530. An extra $1,000 cash to spend. *rubs hands together in glee*

Oops, I should have said that out loud huh? :3

Hope my parents allow me to drive my so-called new car. Knowing my mom, she's going to insist sitting beside me at all times. Prft, don't see the point of calling it my car. Guess it's better than nothing. Hope I'll be able to drive it though, I'm so spoilt with my Mazda 2. Doubt Myvi is as comfortable as it.

*shrugs*

Shopping spree this Thursday! I'll have to buy some sourveniers home for everyone. Err... perhaps I should write down a list. Knowing me, I'll probably miss out someone later.

*shouts to Tiara*
Tiaraaaaa, I'm coming home! :D

When life fails you

Sometimes I wonder, why do I try so hard. What would I gain out of all these? What's the point of helping a person only to realise that life can be so ungrateful.

I'm tired and frustrated. Heck, the things I do won't even benefit myself.

Assignments are due soon and exams following soon after, yet I've lost all motivation to study. Failing seems like a good idea, it gives me a reason to remain in Australia longer. I'm so bloody tired. I've never failed anything in my whole life, and I'm so tempted to start now.

I need a drink. Booze. Lots of it. Now.

The untold truth

Sitting on the front porch on a cool summer's night while my boyfriend waters the garden is wonderful. Especially when it is accompanied by some deliciously warm chicken soup and light chatter.

It was an enjoyable experience. It's been a while since things seem to flow smoothly.

Sigh. Am having second thoughts about going home. I've just been reminded why I chose to left Malaysia in the first place. To escape from being trapped, to loosen ties in hopes of being able to start things afresh.

And now, when I think about Malaysia, I feel all trapped up again.

I'm happy here, coming here is like a dream come true to me. Something that I've been dying to achieve since I was young. Okay... maybe not Australia specifically, but just leaving home and leading my own life.

Ugh. I feel like I have this split personality. One moment I can't wait to go home, the next I'm plotting ways to cancel the trip home.

I wonder when did this started...

I guess... it was when I started wishing I could turn back time, and realising that it will never happen. It was then that I know, going home will not change anything. It'll just remind me of what I could have, why I left.

Life's never going to get any easier on me, eh? =/

Pink swirls

Why on earth does J-Phones have to be so gorgeous? ... And so damn tempting.
Oh well. :(

The other alternative would be the adorable LG Ice Cream. Makes me wonder why do LGs pick the names of food for their products. Hm, I suppose as long as the phone is cute, they might as well go all the way and pick a name that sounds cute too.

"Hey, I have an Ice Cream that I bring along with me all the time." :D

Random, but yeah.

I've been lacking in much needed sleep. Cleaning up for yesterday's inspection really took all the energy I had in me. Not to mention, staying up the entire night to clean the house probably isn't the best method at all. Will need to get my act together and keep this house tidy. Seriously would not want to experience that again. At least now that the computer is in my room, I'm able to limit the destruction to one part of the house.

Last week of assignments, then it'll be preparations for the finals. I can't wait to fly home, sort of. I miss my family, miss being able to mess up the house knowing that I wouldn't have to clean it later. Miss my silly little Tiara.

So many pros and cons, I'll definitely miss my LCD screen, and my anime. And also fast speed connection... and the cool early morning breeze. Ack, this post is turning into a list of things that I miss.

Okay, back to ogling at cute pink flip phones and finding excuses to procrastinate my assignments.

Through the looking glass

another day. another dream.

this time it was in a different time zone, during my primary days. but with someone familiar. and it keeps changing. the scenes are always so dark, i can hardly see much. but it's always the same, of the same thing. darkness... then light. lost... then found. cold... then warmth.
my subconscious trying to tell me something perhaps?

and every time i wake up and lie in bed, i have to battle with myself on going back into that dream, or waking up and facing reality.

i wish it would stop. this is really bugging me. :(

'Twas the dream

Had a weird dream last night. Something involving friends holding a party... or was it an outing? And my uncle crashing it and spoiling the entire event. The party reminded me of my secondary and college days. Those were the fun times. Surrounded by friends and easy laughter, those are the experiences that I'd wish to experience once more.

Somehow, over the years, I seem to have drifted apart from old friends. That was my biggest mistake I suppose. How true the phrase 'boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever' can be.

Coming to Australia, I've somehow managed to reserve myself, not going all out to meet new friends. Their lifestyles are just set in a different league. Even things that I would normally enjoy joining such as anime clubs intimidate me. Seems like self-esteem has gotten to me once more.. I thought I've overcame it.

What went wrong, I wonder. I came here expecting to start life afresh, but now it seems to have spiral downwards back to my past. The days where self-esteem was my biggest challenge, when the people I've met gradually helped me to build it up. Where are they now?

Even books which I've always labelled as my first true love does not help to ease this feeling. What I need now is a change, a change of scenery, a change of friends... as long as it's a change.

Perhaps home is where I should be right now. Surrounded by my family. Life always seems easier with my family around. Sighs. And the countdown begins.

Red streaks

Ugh. Silly Mickey scratched me again. And this time it seems really bad. How on earth am I going to explain this to my mom when I see her? :(

Was watching Oprah's talk show on how clutters in the house makes a person fat. Seems like a pretty valid reason, although I don't think mine is that bad. Still, this gives me the resolution I need to start throwing stuff that I don't need out.

Starting with Mickey.

Also, starting a list on what food to have during the week seems good. Can't believe I've never thought of that. At least then it'll stop me from impulsively buying chocolates that I see in the stores. Perhaps having Coles and Kmart right outside of my house isn't such a good thing at all.

And leaving things right up till the last minute again is such a terrible habit of mine. Trial exam is tomorrow and I've yet to practice for it. Not to mention inspection on the house is on Monday. At least I've cleaned my room so it's in a presentable state now. Sigh. How I wish for a maid, and to think I used to take these things for granted...

Mickey sure knows how to gain favourtisim from me. Just jumps onto my lap and purr, and my heart melts immediately. And he's so limp all the time unlike Orion, makes me wonder if he has the Ragdoll's blood in him.

How I wish I can be a kitten too. No assignments and inspections to worry about. Life's all easy for them. Lucky cat.

Perhaps starting on the website designing for Digital Media Technique would be a good way to be motivated on other stuff too... It's worth a shot I suppose.

Bilby's the word

my legs hurt. :(

sighs. i am never going to try touching the ceiling ever again. i'm just not cut out to jump. prft. what's the point of being tall and not being able to jump high? something must have went haywired during my creation.

at least while tidying up the apartment, i've finally found my pink Fossil watch, and a few other things that i thought were missing. i can't believe how many items i've managed to misplace in that one little apartment.

today was the last day of me and Ray's rent on the apartment. technically it was two days ago but due to some issues, it was delayed till today. i'm going to miss that place, it was my little home for the past year... and also the first place i could call my own.

also, a staff from McDonald's called up today to inform that I've won a prize in the HappyMeal's Endangered Animals competition. according to them, the minor prize that i've won is around $240. honestly, i've forgotten all about the competition, i've entered it during October last year just for the fun of it. i went and google up the competition again and it seems like this is the stuff that i'll be receiving.

Minor Prizes: the next one hundred (100) eligible entries randomly drawn from all eligible entries received will each win one (1) Australia Zoo package valued at up to $283.85. Each Australia Zoo package includes:

a. One (1) Zoo Club 12 month subscription valued at up to $45.00;

b. One (1) Animal Adoption Pack which includes: sponsorship of one (1) animal for 12 months, one (1) Australia Zoo certificate of appreciation, one (1) autographed Irwin family photo print, one (1) fact sheet, one (1) photo of the sponsored animal and regular updates about the sponsored animal on the Australia Zoo website, valued at up to $50.00;

c. One (1) Planet Rescue: Endangered Island on Nintendo DS Game valued at up to $59.95; and

d. One (1) Australia Zoo Merchandise Pack valued at up to $128.90 which includes: one (1) 2009 Australia Zoo Calendar valued at up to $9.95; one (1) Crocodile Hunter – Collision Course DVD valued at up to $39.95; one (1) Bindi Kidfitness DVD and CD valued at up to $29.95; one (1) Australia Zoo Movable Pencil Tin valued at up to $6.95; one (1) Talking 15cm Croc Plush Toy valued at up to $16.95; one (1) Australia Zoo Tiger Cap valued at up to $21.95; one Wildlife Warriors Wristband valued at up to $3.00; and one (1) Crocs Rule! Sticker (2 in each pack) valued at up to $0.20.

The first random competition that I've won. I'm definitely going to enter more competitions in the future just for kicks. (:

my little endangered leatherback turtle which i got from my happy meal :)

As days come to an end

okay, i've gotten bored with the current layout so i've decided to change it. to what... i'm not sure yet. but i'm sure i'll figure something out in time. meanwhile, do put up with this random and terrible layout first. (:

i've set up the computer in my room and rearranged my furniture, just as planned. and now my dear Orion is enjoying a short nap on my newly-washed sheets. prft. he is one lucky dude.

oh well, i'll let him have his last few manly-hours in peace. will have to wake up early tomorrow to bring him to the vet. me and Ray had our little inside 'snip-snip' jokes the whole day, and Orion just stares at us with a blur expression.

*pauses*

i'll really be flying home soon eh?...

after a whole year, going home seems so weird. so different somehow. and there's things that i would like to avoid, people that i'd rather not meet. that was the reason why i left in the first place. i feel safer here, where nobody truly knows me. to them, i'm just one of the few hundreds of asian students studying here.

and being independant is somewhat fun. i get to decide when i want to eat, where i'd like to go, how i'll spend my day. of course there's darling Ray to be taken into consideration as well, but he's pretty much happy-go-lucky.

sighs. i miss home, yet i don't really feel like i'm ready to go home yet. ugh. i wish that there's a way around this.

ps. don't kill me teri. it's just a thought. (:

Proof that my boyfriend is a WoW addict

Me: Dear, what was the jam that you bought?

Ray: What gem? Oh, it adds 18 stamina for a blue socket.

Me: *stares*

Ray: .....

Five seconds later...

Ray: Ohhh! It was marmalade.

Two more minutes till midnight

class starts on Thursday. sighs. after two weeks of break, i'm reluctant to continue with my mundane classes.

imagine taking a break for a whole month... i'm doomed. :(

i'm currently on an anime spree. the wonders of a 22" monitor, and i used to think my 19" was heaven. shows that i've been awfully spoiled by Ray. tsk, terrible ol' me.

i'll need to get on with assignments tomorrow, and to start preparing for my finals. at least the plane ticket is finally booked.

i can't wait to see Tiara. but am also worried about leaving the two kitties at home alone.silly little Mickey was meowing his head off this afternoon just because i've shut the living room door to prevent the cool air from flowing out. i wish there was an easy way to bring them around.

summer heat is starting again, the sun is taking ages to set now. it feels so weird to see the sun still up at 8:30 pm. this is messing up my time. no wonder i'm sleeping even later than usual.

at least the air at night is cool. surprisingly, i kind of miss winter. or rather, i miss the cool air that blows on my face while walking to class. i love those times.

So cats do understand

20 minutes ago...

Me: Orion never hops onto my lap anymore to demand for attention. He used to do that so often when he was younger.

Ray: I remember those times.

-Orion looks up, then leaps onto my lap-

Orion: *settles down* Purrr...

And he is still settled comfortably on my lap. :D

-Shows off-

finally, i have a proper and comfortable keyboard to type with! :D

seriously, you have no idea how uncomfortable some keyboards can get once you're used to your own. it got so annoying and awkward that i went out to the city to grab myself a Logitech Illuminated Keyboard and also a MX 400 Laser Mouse.

images copyright of Logitech. i'll take some pictures of my rig when i clear up my desk.

now my new computer is almost complete. all that's left is to change the video card. anybody have an 8800gt that they would like to trade? ;)

and while i'm at it...

here's my amazing LG monitor. :D

okay okay, i shall stop being proud of my new computer.

dear Ray had the brilliant idea to have a 'mamak night' yesterday, so off we went to Coles and purchased a the dipping bread and curry. turns out that there wasn't enough curry paste so Ray smartly decides to dilute it in hopes of getting more out of the paste.

and this was the result of our mamak night. (:


it was a fun experience overall. was planning to cook Indomee as well, but we've decided that the roti canai and curry was more than enough.

watched Vampire Knight after dinner. man, it's been a while since i've watch anime. how i miss those times where i would rush home from school, grab lunch and plonk myself in front of the computer watching my most recent anime. at least now i have a huge screen to watch it on. :D

and finally, one last picture before i sign off. okay, make it two.

my desktop which i spent ages customising! :D

*runs off*

Fireworks by the beach

my first post of 2009. i'm definitely going to miss 2008. it was a pretty interesting year, if i do say so myself.

i greeted 2009 with a few hundred others at Glenelg. got there at 8pm with Ray and went on a hunting spree for dinner. lesson learned, never assume that there's diner spots available on festive days. we ended up at the Oyster Shop having almost a dozen oysters and salmon for dinner anyway, so it's all good anyway.

dessert was the usual ice cream. i had vanilla beam while Ray ordered some sort of caramel nougat ice cream. we had to be insane though considering that the temperature felt like 15 degrees or so.

being at the beach was interesting. i saw a few people who were either drunk or being plain silly. seriously, it was fun to see them make a fool out of themselves just for a laugh. we reserved a nice spot for fireworks-viewing and just sat there listening to the concert going on a few feet away. the wind was freezing, i remember wishing that i had brought a thicker jacket instead.

as always, there is a countdown before the actual firework show. and finally when the fireworks started, i was gobsmacked. it was amazing, and considering that this is my first firework show in Adelaide, i am not disappointed.

sadly, it lasted only five minutes. but it was the best five minutes. seriously, the ones i've seen previously was nothing compared to this. :D

and now, i'm in the mood for a can of alcohol. some guy was pouring beer into a can of coke to avoid inspection and the smell hit me like a ton of bricks. it's been ages since i've last touched a can. went to Coles just now but it was closed. oh well, seems like i'll not get any alcohol for a while. :(

i know it's been a while since i've last updated, but i was just busy setting up my new computer and customising the programs. i've honestly never knew that windows xp could be this fun.

now all i need to complete my new rig is a keyboard and mouse set. typing on this keyboard that Ray gave me is so awkward, i'm just so used to typing on a flat laptop keyboard. found one promising one from Logitech, seems like i've found my perfect match. man, i must seem like a Logitech fan, my speakers, keyboard and mouse is all the same brand.

okay, i'm definitely about to crash, will run off to bed now. happy new year everyone and i hope you'll enjoy your fireworks! :)